So much has changed in the past three months. I went from crying my eyes out thinking that I would never get over it to being over him.

Im not dating anyone right now. but thats cool cause I am going to college in a couple of months. 

ON friday I go to disneyland.with my senior class I am so excited. Five hour energy all the way. 

I wrecked my car last friday. My parents arent mad but I am going to have to live on campus next year so in a way I get what I want with the whole moving out thing

I have to kick ass on my finals to make sure I can keep promise to the future. CROSS YOUR FINGERS!

I know what I will be doing differently in college!

what was I really expecting? That I would say all those things and he would confess his undying love? That he would drive over in the middle of night with roses telling me that it was me all along. I need to stop watching chick flicks my  life or anyones life doesnt actually happen like that. Second chances hardly ever come and third chances who am I kidding? I screwed it all up multiple times and now that I see that it was in fact ME and not him, theres no way we will ever get back. The only good thing that will come of this is me learning that the good guys are the ones I want. The assholes I date, are not. 

I can honestly say that I will be graduating without any regrets. 

I want you back. I care. This time everything is different. I promise.

okay,

I currently only have one regret in my life and thats breaking up with you two years ago.

Im so nervous for today in so many ways….please dont make it awkward. Please dont make me sad. Please just be my friend today.